So I had to wake up early today to take Johnthon to school…he was late and I was pissed that I had to be up so fucking early….
Elyse and Johnathon are fighting. Why are they fighting? Tina Burns. Oh well you should not tell somebody you can do something when you actually can’t.
I have a test next Wednesday…I’m not happy. I also have a bunch of shit due for Monday and then Wednesday…I’m fucked. Ugh I HATE school…I dunno how many times I have to say it for people to believe me.
Well nothing much happened…so maybe I’ll update tomorrow or Sunday.
Later.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Lazy Days...
So yesterday we had not school...Johnathon and I hung out with Elyse and Ralph. it was fun. We went to eat and went to the movies to see "The Unborn". The movie was not that bad. I give them credit it did keep me interested. Elyse and Ralph were scared and I though it was funny. As did Johnathon. OH! During the up coming movies was saw the trailers for “The Last House On The Left” and “Friday The 13th” I’m so fucking pumped! I wanna see both =) well because I saw both the originals…
Here are the trailers
I’m so pumped for them!
So anyway after the movie we went to eat at McDonalds. I hate eating fast food, but sometimes it’s just soooo fucking good =(. I feel so fat…
So Johnathon spent the night and we had a delay as it turns out today so I only had one class…that makes me happy =)
Today night when Johnathon it as work I think I might go to the gym and run…maybe it will help me feel better about myself…just maybe. That is if I can get over this thing I have about the gym and I feel like everyone is watching me lol. Well I gtg
Later.
Here are the trailers
I’m so pumped for them!
So anyway after the movie we went to eat at McDonalds. I hate eating fast food, but sometimes it’s just soooo fucking good =(. I feel so fat…
So Johnathon spent the night and we had a delay as it turns out today so I only had one class…that makes me happy =)
Today night when Johnathon it as work I think I might go to the gym and run…maybe it will help me feel better about myself…just maybe. That is if I can get over this thing I have about the gym and I feel like everyone is watching me lol. Well I gtg
Later.
Monday, January 26, 2009
This weekend
So this weekend was ok.
Friday: Went to go to class to find it was canceled. Sweet. I did not want to go any way =). Wrote in blogspot…told my friends I wrote about them and they should/ could read it…because I feel if you write about somebody and it’s positive then you should tell that person…just saying. Johnathon and I were supposed to go see our friend Katrina, but she never really answered her text as to what time she was going to be coming home…so we did not see her. Instead we hung out with Alecia and Kristin. We made dinner and talked for hours about fun things…it was a good time. I really like them. They are fun kids. That was my Friday.
Saturday: Went to work for 10- 3 and Johnathon had work from 11-4. No fun. It was CRAZY. So yeah…it sucked ass. After work we saw Elyse went to eat, then went to Johnathon’s to watch his little brother and sister. Elyse stayed for like I think 2 hours, but that was it. After she left I got sooo bored. His dad and his girlfriend said they would home at like 11…no they got home at like 12:50…fun times. With the kids we watched some movie…it was ok…not that great… it had that guy from the office and the 40 year old virgin in it. I dunno his name even though I’m sure I should…oh well. The movie also had Ann Hathaway? I think that’s how you spell it? I dunno anyways Johnathon was going to spend the night at my house, but he didn’t. I got pissed at him and tried to go to sleep.
Sunday: Had work at 10. Work up a little late because I could not fall asleep the night before. Went to my car to find that my key went into the keyhole, but would not turn…it was weird. To told my dad…he tried and failed as well…so great my car is broken and my dad has to fix it once again…I hope he can right now my car has no steering wheel. Yep. So happy about that. And to top it off my tier is flat…I need this shit called “fix a flat”. I have to save up to buy a new computer, but I don’t think it’s going so well. At first it was going just fine, but we keep eating out and going places….ugh so anyway back to Sunday. I had to take my dads car to work. I picked up Johnathon and droped me off, went to school to practice for 6 hours…He picked my up at 4 and we went to my house and we where REALLY hungry. We called Ely because we were supposed to see her and get food, but she was in a meeting till like 5:30 I think so we had a little snack and then went to the Viewmont Dinner (also know as the VD so when you see the VD that’s what it means) We all ate…Ely ate the most…it was funny. We spent time there talking about stuff for like 3 hours. Good times. After that we went to my house to get my singstar games and we sang all night…well till like 12:00. Johnathon and I yet again got into another fight and went to my house. We fight all the time… Kate Nash song time plays in my head when fight…this part always does.
“And every time we fight I know it's not right,
every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.”
So yeah…but we got over it and all is well. We need to stop fighting… well bickering. I’m sure things will be fine. They always are.
Well it’s almost time for class and I did not read Perez yet…so off I go
Later.
Friday: Went to go to class to find it was canceled. Sweet. I did not want to go any way =). Wrote in blogspot…told my friends I wrote about them and they should/ could read it…because I feel if you write about somebody and it’s positive then you should tell that person…just saying. Johnathon and I were supposed to go see our friend Katrina, but she never really answered her text as to what time she was going to be coming home…so we did not see her. Instead we hung out with Alecia and Kristin. We made dinner and talked for hours about fun things…it was a good time. I really like them. They are fun kids. That was my Friday.
Saturday: Went to work for 10- 3 and Johnathon had work from 11-4. No fun. It was CRAZY. So yeah…it sucked ass. After work we saw Elyse went to eat, then went to Johnathon’s to watch his little brother and sister. Elyse stayed for like I think 2 hours, but that was it. After she left I got sooo bored. His dad and his girlfriend said they would home at like 11…no they got home at like 12:50…fun times. With the kids we watched some movie…it was ok…not that great… it had that guy from the office and the 40 year old virgin in it. I dunno his name even though I’m sure I should…oh well. The movie also had Ann Hathaway? I think that’s how you spell it? I dunno anyways Johnathon was going to spend the night at my house, but he didn’t. I got pissed at him and tried to go to sleep.
Sunday: Had work at 10. Work up a little late because I could not fall asleep the night before. Went to my car to find that my key went into the keyhole, but would not turn…it was weird. To told my dad…he tried and failed as well…so great my car is broken and my dad has to fix it once again…I hope he can right now my car has no steering wheel. Yep. So happy about that. And to top it off my tier is flat…I need this shit called “fix a flat”. I have to save up to buy a new computer, but I don’t think it’s going so well. At first it was going just fine, but we keep eating out and going places….ugh so anyway back to Sunday. I had to take my dads car to work. I picked up Johnathon and droped me off, went to school to practice for 6 hours…He picked my up at 4 and we went to my house and we where REALLY hungry. We called Ely because we were supposed to see her and get food, but she was in a meeting till like 5:30 I think so we had a little snack and then went to the Viewmont Dinner (also know as the VD so when you see the VD that’s what it means) We all ate…Ely ate the most…it was funny. We spent time there talking about stuff for like 3 hours. Good times. After that we went to my house to get my singstar games and we sang all night…well till like 12:00. Johnathon and I yet again got into another fight and went to my house. We fight all the time… Kate Nash song time plays in my head when fight…this part always does.
“And every time we fight I know it's not right,
every time that you're upset and I smile.
I know I should forget, but I can't.”
So yeah…but we got over it and all is well. We need to stop fighting… well bickering. I’m sure things will be fine. They always are.
Well it’s almost time for class and I did not read Perez yet…so off I go
Later.
Friday, January 23, 2009
So last night I was thinking about my friends and how much I miss them all
Marina: We did so much with each other and I think I was the closest with you for the longest. I miss that…I miss having somebody to talk to and I knew you did not tell anyone the things I told you. We also had a lot of good time together and I wont ever forget them. You and I do still talk and we do see each other sometimes to catch up…I like when we do it makes me smile =)
Shayna: You are my everything. I love you. I really do. We are still best of friends even if I don’t get to see you as often as I did, but I love you. I miss our nights of our rode trips to no where. Mannings was the best! I'll never forget that. We just drove. We did not always know were we are going, but we did not give a fuck. We were so happy. I think I might cry …. Shayna I love you…that’s it. We will remand friends forever…I know it. =) <3
Nick: You were my only guy friend…now we both like boys…funny how that worked out. Lol. You were the only boy who did not make fun of me…well to my face at least. I miss our morning walks to school and our walks home. They really where some of the best conversations I ever had with any one. You were also one crazy motherfucker and I loved it. I wish we stayed close friends in high school, but we went our own ways….not that we were not friends, but we where not as close as we once were. I hope we do have that get together soon. You are an amazing person Nick…
Loren: I miss our drives in your van…going around singing….to anything we knew. I would be the craziest person with you…I did not care what people though about me when I was with you. You made me smile and I made you smile. We did have our fights, but in the end we always ended up friends. You and I were so inseparable in middle school and most of high school. I miss that…I miss you. Loren I think you were the only girl that loved me for me and I loved you for you. Thank you <3
Samantha: We where the best of friends and you where my first full time best friend. We spent endless summer days together. In my pool, going to burger king, then doing my paper out. Oh I miss those days soooo much. We did not care how fat where or how fat we where getting lol. I think that was most definitely one of the best summers I’ve ever had in my life. We spent so much time together…we were best of friends. Me you Shayna, and sometimes Marina (because she went to Greece). I really do think that was one of the best summers….I really do. Sam… I miss you. We drifted in High school….you had new friends and pretty much a new life. I don’t think you and I ever had a dull moment…you make me smile…. you’re a cool kid Sam… I love you. P.S. Sam…I kinda want a Hershey pie right now…how about you? =)
As time went on we all ended up with new friends...boy friends… girl friends… and we all kinda fell apart and did not stay in touch as much as we all once did. We had good times and bad times… you know I love you all…very much =) I miss you all and I miss who we all were. If it’s sone thing I’ve learned from life it’s all good things must come to an end…and they do, but we are left with the memories and that’s’ what I feel sometimes keeps a true friendship alive…I love you guys…and thank you all for being my friends.
<3
P.S. I don’t think I may have offended anyone, but If I did I’m sorry…it was meant to make any of you mad
Marina: We did so much with each other and I think I was the closest with you for the longest. I miss that…I miss having somebody to talk to and I knew you did not tell anyone the things I told you. We also had a lot of good time together and I wont ever forget them. You and I do still talk and we do see each other sometimes to catch up…I like when we do it makes me smile =)
Shayna: You are my everything. I love you. I really do. We are still best of friends even if I don’t get to see you as often as I did, but I love you. I miss our nights of our rode trips to no where. Mannings was the best! I'll never forget that. We just drove. We did not always know were we are going, but we did not give a fuck. We were so happy. I think I might cry …. Shayna I love you…that’s it. We will remand friends forever…I know it. =) <3
Nick: You were my only guy friend…now we both like boys…funny how that worked out. Lol. You were the only boy who did not make fun of me…well to my face at least. I miss our morning walks to school and our walks home. They really where some of the best conversations I ever had with any one. You were also one crazy motherfucker and I loved it. I wish we stayed close friends in high school, but we went our own ways….not that we were not friends, but we where not as close as we once were. I hope we do have that get together soon. You are an amazing person Nick…
Loren: I miss our drives in your van…going around singing….to anything we knew. I would be the craziest person with you…I did not care what people though about me when I was with you. You made me smile and I made you smile. We did have our fights, but in the end we always ended up friends. You and I were so inseparable in middle school and most of high school. I miss that…I miss you. Loren I think you were the only girl that loved me for me and I loved you for you. Thank you <3
Samantha: We where the best of friends and you where my first full time best friend. We spent endless summer days together. In my pool, going to burger king, then doing my paper out. Oh I miss those days soooo much. We did not care how fat where or how fat we where getting lol. I think that was most definitely one of the best summers I’ve ever had in my life. We spent so much time together…we were best of friends. Me you Shayna, and sometimes Marina (because she went to Greece). I really do think that was one of the best summers….I really do. Sam… I miss you. We drifted in High school….you had new friends and pretty much a new life. I don’t think you and I ever had a dull moment…you make me smile…. you’re a cool kid Sam… I love you. P.S. Sam…I kinda want a Hershey pie right now…how about you? =)
As time went on we all ended up with new friends...boy friends… girl friends… and we all kinda fell apart and did not stay in touch as much as we all once did. We had good times and bad times… you know I love you all…very much =) I miss you all and I miss who we all were. If it’s sone thing I’ve learned from life it’s all good things must come to an end…and they do, but we are left with the memories and that’s’ what I feel sometimes keeps a true friendship alive…I love you guys…and thank you all for being my friends.
<3
P.S. I don’t think I may have offended anyone, but If I did I’m sorry…it was meant to make any of you mad
...=)
So yesterday I added my iTune back onto my computer and added a bunch of songs to my ipod. I got Kelly Clarkson’s new song “My Life Would Suck Without You” and I do really like it it’s like “Since You Been Gone” part 2 lol I like when people do that. That is when they make a part 2 to a song, but don’t really intend on it being one. Lol. I also go a bunch of new Lily Allen song’s. I got “Faghag”, “He Wasn’t There”. “The Fear” (I already had this one…) “I could Say” (that one 2), “22” and “Straight To Hell”. I’M SO PUMPED FOR HER NEW ALBUM!!!!! It comes out February 10 I think… and that week also brings us Friday The 13th!!!! I’m so fucking pumped for that movie you got no idea….I love them.
So I’m listening to Lily Allen’s “The Fear” and hear are some of the lyrics.. I LOVE THIS SONG! Here are the kyrics…You should go download it and or buy the cd when it comes out =)
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them
I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner
[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars cussing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner
Chorus
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
[Bridge]
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner
[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear
So I also downloaded “If I were A Boy” …I don’t really care for Beyonce, but I like the song…so whatever.
Ugh I really don’t want to go class today…=/
...
Later
So I’m listening to Lily Allen’s “The Fear” and hear are some of the lyrics.. I LOVE THIS SONG! Here are the kyrics…You should go download it and or buy the cd when it comes out =)
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them
I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner
[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars cussing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner
Chorus
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear
[Bridge]
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner
[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear
So I also downloaded “If I were A Boy” …I don’t really care for Beyonce, but I like the song…so whatever.
Ugh I really don’t want to go class today…=/
...
Later
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
it dont matter what i do.
So today has been weird in the feelings department. I’ve been up and down all day. I often wonder why I put on a smile and go on with my day… it does not make me feel any better what so ever. So then why do I do it? I dunno. Sometimes it’s for Johnathon and other days it’s for everyone who looks at me and thinks im fine. I need to stop lying to myself and to everyone around me…I’m not fine…and nobody cares enough to help me. I some times just want a hug…I don’t even really get those any more… I give them to people sometimes just so I feel better. No body wants to hug me, I always do the hugging even if that person does not want a hug. I for some reason REALLY want to dye my hair brown. It might make me feel like somebody new and maybe I won’t feel so sad…I dunno I guess it doesn’t matter what I want right? And that's how I feel...Well I’m gunna go because Johnathon will be done soon.
…I lied I can talk for a few more moments.
I got my computer back from Nick…bottom line I was pissed when I turned it on last night because it has NOTHING on it what so ever…w.e I get what I pay for…nothing!
I don’t want to go to class….fuck Ted’s. I wish someone would read my blog and make comments so I know people actually like me. Oh well. Why does Hilary Duff’s song Holiday haunt my brain! I listen to it over and over and over and over some more!! I fucking love it. She made a song that really falls into my category of music I guess. It’s sad and she’s talking about a lost love. that = the best songs (to me at least)
I feel sick. my head is all over the place...
I miss the summer
I miss who we were
I miss being happy...
I miss the spark...
please bring it back
maybe my happy days are taking a holiday? That must be it...
gtg Johnathon will be here soon.
…I lied I can talk for a few more moments.
I got my computer back from Nick…bottom line I was pissed when I turned it on last night because it has NOTHING on it what so ever…w.e I get what I pay for…nothing!
I don’t want to go to class….fuck Ted’s. I wish someone would read my blog and make comments so I know people actually like me. Oh well. Why does Hilary Duff’s song Holiday haunt my brain! I listen to it over and over and over and over some more!! I fucking love it. She made a song that really falls into my category of music I guess. It’s sad and she’s talking about a lost love. that = the best songs (to me at least)
I feel sick. my head is all over the place...
I miss the summer
I miss who we were
I miss being happy...
I miss the spark...
please bring it back
maybe my happy days are taking a holiday? That must be it...
gtg Johnathon will be here soon.
Monday, January 19, 2009
This is more than I can take.
So I have to fix my brothers senior pictures using Photoshop for my mom because she’s a cheap ass and Rich Bannick is an ass who only wants money from Dunmore High School students… fuck him.
On the plus side I think my mom MIGHT be buying me a computer…YESSS!!! I finally get a new one =)
Maybe more later… and oh yea 22 months is AMAZING…
Friday, January 16, 2009
I got to get away...
So I did not update anything yesterday when I did very well have the time. Oh well. That’s why I’m doing it today. So I decided that I really need to try and keep the past in the past. I hope I can do it. I just need to vent before I try and let go of things.
1. You should never of started a relationship if you are not over the person you last dated. It’s silly and only hurts the new person you date.
2. You did in fact write about something’s that made me smile and helped me remember a lot of fun things we did, BUT you also would go back to remembering your ex and still would talk about things that would never of happened if you where over your ex like you said you were. If you REALLY were you would have talked about them.
3. I officially decided that May and July are my least favorite months. You know the reason’s why.
4. I noticed that as soon as I found your journal you stopped writing about your ex…does that mean if I never found out about it you would still have wrote about them? That question haunts me almost everyday.
5. Do you like any music? Other than like 3 people??
The list ends there. I’m getting upset and I might end up getting mean and I don’t want to. Like I said before I NEED to get over the past and leave it where it belongs…in the past, but I can’t stop my mind from thinking things…I really wish I could have control over my brain and block out things that I know I should not be thinking. But I guess that’s part of the thrill of being human…if that makes sense?
I sometimes think that I should listen to more positive music so I won’t be so sad all the time. Like right now I’m listing to Hilary Duff “I am” here are some of the lyrics.
am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
and powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
They are kind of positive so that makes me happy. Now I have on “Who’s That Girl?” ...sad song… oh well I love sad songs and can’t help it.
So Katrina’s birthday is Sunday. We don’t have work in Saturday I kind of want to go see her as a surprise, but I dunno if that would work out. It would be amazing if we did not have work on Sunday so that way we can go see her for 2 days and stay the night, but I doubt that work would give us both off on the weekend…and better not because that’s the only time we can work.
Oh on another note I should be getting my computer back today! Nick only had it forever. I’m kinda pumped to have a computer back I really missed mine sooooo much…even if it is a piece of shit and I need to get a new one, but still the one I have kinda works so I’ll be happy to have it back and so I can fix things on my Ipod and up load more songs. I can also add pictures to my facebook and myspace that never got added =). Speaking of myspace it kinda makes me sad when Johnathon says that he hates myspace…. that’s how we met. It makes me sad and I know that makes me a loser, but that’s sometimes makes me feel as if he hates it then does that mean he hates that he met me on myspace? I dunno I’m crazy. I wish people actually would read my blog so I can get comments to know people care…oh well I gtg to class soon
1. You should never of started a relationship if you are not over the person you last dated. It’s silly and only hurts the new person you date.
2. You did in fact write about something’s that made me smile and helped me remember a lot of fun things we did, BUT you also would go back to remembering your ex and still would talk about things that would never of happened if you where over your ex like you said you were. If you REALLY were you would have talked about them.
3. I officially decided that May and July are my least favorite months. You know the reason’s why.
4. I noticed that as soon as I found your journal you stopped writing about your ex…does that mean if I never found out about it you would still have wrote about them? That question haunts me almost everyday.
5. Do you like any music? Other than like 3 people??
The list ends there. I’m getting upset and I might end up getting mean and I don’t want to. Like I said before I NEED to get over the past and leave it where it belongs…in the past, but I can’t stop my mind from thinking things…I really wish I could have control over my brain and block out things that I know I should not be thinking. But I guess that’s part of the thrill of being human…if that makes sense?
I sometimes think that I should listen to more positive music so I won’t be so sad all the time. Like right now I’m listing to Hilary Duff “I am” here are some of the lyrics.
am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
and powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I'm pitiful
But that's so typical of all the things I am
They are kind of positive so that makes me happy. Now I have on “Who’s That Girl?” ...sad song… oh well I love sad songs and can’t help it.
So Katrina’s birthday is Sunday. We don’t have work in Saturday I kind of want to go see her as a surprise, but I dunno if that would work out. It would be amazing if we did not have work on Sunday so that way we can go see her for 2 days and stay the night, but I doubt that work would give us both off on the weekend…and better not because that’s the only time we can work.
Oh on another note I should be getting my computer back today! Nick only had it forever. I’m kinda pumped to have a computer back I really missed mine sooooo much…even if it is a piece of shit and I need to get a new one, but still the one I have kinda works so I’ll be happy to have it back and so I can fix things on my Ipod and up load more songs. I can also add pictures to my facebook and myspace that never got added =). Speaking of myspace it kinda makes me sad when Johnathon says that he hates myspace…. that’s how we met. It makes me sad and I know that makes me a loser, but that’s sometimes makes me feel as if he hates it then does that mean he hates that he met me on myspace? I dunno I’m crazy. I wish people actually would read my blog so I can get comments to know people care…oh well I gtg to class soon
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
this is no holiday for me...
Hey so it has been SUCH a long time since I have up dated this or even looked at it. So let me try and get this back on track because I think this semester I might have more time to post things. So I don’t really like this semester at all. Let’s just hope it gets better. As it turns out I’ll have more free time in between classes so I can try and update.
As for Johnathon and I things have been good…I hope. We may have had our differences, but as everyday goes by we get stronger. Elyse and I recently did some creeping on his ex-boyfriends journal to find that Johnathon liked to comment on some of his past journal entries…even though we were together. I try to ignore it, but I can’t…and I should not have to. I sometimes can’t get over how in love he was with him and it kills me inside…I mean it has been like what almost 2 fucking years… I need to get over it. Oh well the past is in the past. On the plus side Johnathon and I see each other like everyday and it makes me happy. I can’t see my life without him…it would be WAY weird. He’s my best friend and more. We do everything together and I hope we will forever…no I know we will =) So this summer we plan on going to maybe Philly for like a day or 2. I love when Johnathon and I take trips by ourselves, but at the same time I wish Elyse would go with us just so we can have somebody else to experience the trip with. Don’t get me wrong I’m more than pumped to go anywhere with Johnathon… it’s one of my favorite things to do =), but I wish somebody saw all the crazy ass shit that happens when we do go away.
I just want to say to Johnathon that if he reads this (I’m sure he will) that I’m sorry for being so crazy and starting all the fights and thank you for sticking by me all this time…I know it must be hard and I’m sorry. I’m going to try and not get so mad over stupid things anymore. I did do it at one point in my life…well I at least toned it down…a lot. So I’m sure I can do it again. Let’s just hope I can just get over it and let things not bug me as much as they do.
Since I last updated this I don’t think I spoke of 2 of my very best friends Melanie and Allison. They are both great girls and I love them sooooo fucking much. They make my hellish years of being stuck in a school I hate bearable. They take my mind away from a lot of problems and we don’t really discuss each other’s problems. We kind of keep it to ourselves and it’s cool. I don’t know what would have happen to me if I never got the chance to met them. I’m sure my college experience would suck a lot more that it already does. It makes me sad to only have 2 classes with them =( . I feel like we should all be in the same classes all the time lol.
Well that’s my short update on my boring life at MU. Later.
P.S. I wanted this to be in greatest journal, but they would not let me update do to them having problems =(
As for Johnathon and I things have been good…I hope. We may have had our differences, but as everyday goes by we get stronger. Elyse and I recently did some creeping on his ex-boyfriends journal to find that Johnathon liked to comment on some of his past journal entries…even though we were together. I try to ignore it, but I can’t…and I should not have to. I sometimes can’t get over how in love he was with him and it kills me inside…I mean it has been like what almost 2 fucking years… I need to get over it. Oh well the past is in the past. On the plus side Johnathon and I see each other like everyday and it makes me happy. I can’t see my life without him…it would be WAY weird. He’s my best friend and more. We do everything together and I hope we will forever…no I know we will =) So this summer we plan on going to maybe Philly for like a day or 2. I love when Johnathon and I take trips by ourselves, but at the same time I wish Elyse would go with us just so we can have somebody else to experience the trip with. Don’t get me wrong I’m more than pumped to go anywhere with Johnathon… it’s one of my favorite things to do =), but I wish somebody saw all the crazy ass shit that happens when we do go away.
I just want to say to Johnathon that if he reads this (I’m sure he will) that I’m sorry for being so crazy and starting all the fights and thank you for sticking by me all this time…I know it must be hard and I’m sorry. I’m going to try and not get so mad over stupid things anymore. I did do it at one point in my life…well I at least toned it down…a lot. So I’m sure I can do it again. Let’s just hope I can just get over it and let things not bug me as much as they do.
Since I last updated this I don’t think I spoke of 2 of my very best friends Melanie and Allison. They are both great girls and I love them sooooo fucking much. They make my hellish years of being stuck in a school I hate bearable. They take my mind away from a lot of problems and we don’t really discuss each other’s problems. We kind of keep it to ourselves and it’s cool. I don’t know what would have happen to me if I never got the chance to met them. I’m sure my college experience would suck a lot more that it already does. It makes me sad to only have 2 classes with them =( . I feel like we should all be in the same classes all the time lol.
Well that’s my short update on my boring life at MU. Later.
P.S. I wanted this to be in greatest journal, but they would not let me update do to them having problems =(
Friday, January 9, 2009
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